Rambling A over a year ago, I passed up the chance of having the one person I always wanted, because I wanted my freedom. I wanted just myself again, afer years of trying to love someone else, who was determined to erase my existence I guess we could say. I said mean, heartless things that I regret.I was drowning in mid air trying to the reality of everything happening around me, that I hurt the one person I never wanted to hurt. I think back to those conversations a lot of times I just want to cry, how could I let someone break me down so badly, that all I could say to the one person I actually loved was harsh, shattering words? How in the world did I let things get so out of control, that I couldnt even control myself? Then the hundreds of memories of the love I so wanted flashes through, its just.. a hurricane of mixed emotions.. Then I block everything out, its too overwhelming for me to deal with. Tears are not something I wish to shed. I couldnt apologize even though I want to, nothing I could say or do, could erase what I said and did. Time doesnt rewind, there are no do overs. All that because at the time, I wanted myself and my freedom. Well I got my freedom and myself. Turns out I've too much freedom these days. Most nights I lay awake with a thousand memories, words, or just random thoughts rambling through my mind, to fall asleep and dream of the love I once upon a time knew. I guess the upside is I dont dream every night, well not that i always re, but these days its that I sleep. Its crazy to me, that I gave up the chance because I wasnt exactly sure if what I believed I wanted was what I wanted or thoughts of someone else. Makes no sense im sure. But now that I've had this year to myself, the freedom of doing whatever I please, no one hounding me, or trying to change who I am, Ive realized a lot of things. Like that I always changed what I said I wanted in a guy over the years.. example "I don't like little guys I like bigger guys". Only I wasnt cl Array 33 yr old bbw looking for loveLooking to meet new faces to help stay positive and become a better me Just moved back home after a 4 year relationship with a guy who I now only care for as my friend yet stayed with, out of fear of being alone.I thought I was just getting older and that there was no one else for me because before him I didn't have much luck with guys.I'm trying to put myself first now because my biggest downfall was putting him first and I forgot to take care of me to be.even though me and him have recently broke up our relationship as a couple was always breaking up and getting back together we thought at one point we wanted it to work but hurt each other in the process and that just led to not loving each other like lovers but caring about each other only as friends.I need to get myself more friends and enjoy life for me I'm 27 and have no. and even though I thought that time is running out for me its not I just haven't used my time correctly japanese swinger Sandown dating black men
looking for a drinking swingers personals someone genuine,') Hey ! Im 31looking for someone to get to know. I love driving to the coast going out to have a drink socially. Cuddling up eating junk food,watching , just about anything if I love the company. You be funny, kind and gentlemen and somewhat old fashioned as far as treating a girl right,') and not too cocky. Doesn't matter race or creed,'). I have my own everything so no need to question that. If you think you might be interested let me know. I have attached a. Its not the greatest but gives you an idea of what I look like. Thanx! Gascoyne sexy bitches
ca63 biggest tits sexy date members contest with real rewards
find horny girls on Rifle coast Ladies looking sex tonight Ellington Missouri attractive wm iso Weirton skinned bbw super cock de Flushing New York
OLDER DADDY LOOKING FOR LITTLE GIRL. attractive wm iso Weirton skinned bbw20 m wanting love. super cock de Flushing New York dating japanese girl
biggest tits sexy date members contest with real rewards RECENTLY RELOCATED ATTRACTIVE SBF.
Well hung 420 stud for fun.
japanese swinger Sandown ca64 Array
Wives wants hot sex CA Cole 90046 looking for a bi girl for friendship moreText and Friends. horny men
Erie horny girl Housewives want real sex Red House
fuck for free in Viborg South Dakota Trying to find ms sexy.
getting of work Creswick needed some fun Lonely ladies searching girls seeking men suck you dry near Oslo
ca65 pussy wanting cock MeredithI have been on Atripla for almost 3 years and the only side effect I have are the really vivid dreams,when I first started it it did make me drunk so I had to make sure I wasn't driving, before atripla I was taking the combo of meds. I just make sure I take it at least 30. before bed because it can cause heartburn. Best of luck if you do decide to start this med. it works great for me. I have been poz since. women wants for nsa
friend for frequent traveler to Serenada this is one of my two theme songs right now: Ever been misunderstood, misused, or misled? Ever knocked on the sky an' had it fall on your head? Well, don't worry 'bout it, don't worry. Ever lost your luggage, your marbles, your house? Or found yourself in bed with Uncle or Mouse? Ever been accused of murder on Music Row? Or caught in morning traffic when you really gotta go? Oh no! Life is funny, life's a mess, Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing. don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it. Life gets sticky, life can bruise: Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry 'bout a thing. Ever sat yourself down when the seat is all wet, Or your ex sucking face with a little brunette (No, no, no.) don't worry 'bout it, No don't worry. Ever lost your religion, ever lost your best friend, Ever found your lost record in the bargain bin, Or been stuck in a divorce like crazy glue, Or scraped someone -'s gum off the bottom of your shoe. Boo hoo! Life is funny, life's a mess, Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing. don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it. Life gets sticky, life can bruise: Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry 'bout a thing. We all got a little junk in the trunk, An' when you're feelin' good as sunk. (You're feeling good as sunk.) Remember, everything be just fine, If I laugh at yours then you'll laugh at mine. Oh, oh, ooh, ooh. Life is funny, life's a mess, Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing. don't worry 'bout a thing, don't worry 'bout it. Life gets sticky, life can bruise: Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry. Life is funny, life's a mess, Sometimes a curse, sometimes a blessing. don't worry 'bout a thing, No don't worry 'bout it. Life gets sticky, life can bruise: Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry 'bout a thing. Life gets sticky, life can bruise: Sometimes you win, sometimes you're losing. No matter what it brings, don't worry 'bout a thing. find horny girls on Rifle coast
want to fuck Payneville Kentucky nasty truth. He also learn what is right and what is wrong, if you do what is right. Someday, he even tell you so. Until then, GoneGray is correct, let it go. Your anger/frustration with the situation is not helping you or your (and I know, it is easier said than done, trust me, I know). Get on with rtaising your to be a mature and productive member of society. At his wedding, no one care about who owns the car the X mother-in-law is driving. mature fucks Syracuse
no need to show nasty ones unless you really want to i prefer you face over nasty any day but would not cumplain about the nasty ones!! :) now i remember you talking about your skiing sorry i should have remembered. very cool! scuba is not expensive once you have the gear and you live near the water :) cambridge makes some really good stuff! the company was started bi an icon in the business kloss also of KLH..his initials backwards .and contrary from common belief, blowing speakers is seldom from over driving them it is usually from over driving the amp not the speakers. have you ever wanted or thought about being with a woman? met at petsmart you just got a muscular female datings
Kik Your Exotic friend. arabic teen slut from Columbiaville New YorkVoyeurism and porn. bbw my girl
totally free sex dates Aachen Lady seeking sex tonight NC Whiteville 28472 free sex bbw Sutrio
i love that face Sitting on the Fence is Nowhere. horny chat rooms in Meribaa meet hot guys for sex tonight Townsville
Lady seeking casual sex Devers meet hot guys for sex tonight Townsville horny chat rooms in Meribaa
Ebony swingers want sexy chat room, discreet women looking date site. © Copyright 2015